august 4th 2014

I cried watching a soap opera "MY MOTHERS DAUGHTER" I watched the rich life the twins lived , celene and margo, Remembering how I lived very poor, I never had anything I wanted, no nice clothes, no good food, there was a time the fish we wanted to use to cook went bad with worms in it, my dad washed it and still used it to cook and we ate even if there was some particles of worm in it,#sobbing I always accepted life the way I saw it, always wishing I was born by rich parents, even when I went to a school of rich peeps , I always felt out of place. It got to a point I created a perfect fantasy world in my head, were everything was so perfect and ok. I just want God to bless my family and save us from this struggling, I really feel bad for my mum who is really sick yet still looks after us, I really want to give her the life she really wanted to live, with all my heart, I pray her efforts does not go in vain. I have dreams I want to finish my law degree in Nigeria, go abroad do my masters in international law.